Hi,

It has been a really long time. I wish I had a great reason. I don’t. Everything has felt both “blah” and on fire at the same time for quite a long time now, which makes it hard to get much of anything done.

I miss writing. I miss feeling a sense of “community” and “purpose” around ideas. Related to what I said, above, I feel like none of this really matters—so, my “priorities” go elsewhere—and yet everything is also on fire and so … of course it matters.

But, if I sit and think about where my “priorities” have gone, I can’t really point to anything. Everyday is basically the same, which involves me putting off stuff I don’t want to do while simultaneously not doing stuff I do want to do.

I have so many things going through my head all the time. I want to get them out, many of them to share here in an effort to “work through” ideas. But, I can’t seem to get anything out of my head, which means I end up feeling trapped, a sense I sometimes describe as feeling “claustrophobic inside my own head.”

Here’s an idea: I wonder if I knew there was someone out there that wanted to hear from me, that wantedto knew what I thought about X, Y, or Z, if I would feel a bit more motivation … and, therefore, dosomething. This, similar to an “assignment” with a “due date.”

Or, put another way: I am taking requests. Ideas?