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a Mini Lecture from My Suddenly-Online Music Technology Class

Added on by Taylor Smith.

COVID-19 means my Digital Audio Recording and Production class must now be a fully-online class. This sucks; it’s not a class that lends itself to well “distance education.” But, here I am trying to figure out how to do all of this online.

Here is a crappy little “lecture” about audio mixing for the curious:

Six “Elements” of a Mix

“The Mix”

Musicians, engineers, and producers throw around the word “mix” kind of a lot. It’s one of those words that seems meaningful—well, it is meaningful—but means slightly different things to different people.

In its most basic definition, “the mix” is the combination of all of the audio elements in a given recording. Using purely musical terms, this would be something similar to a combination of orchestration, dynamics, and timbre. In engineer-speak, someone might talk about frequency, sympathetic vibration, and amplitude.

Six Elements

Bobby Owsinski defines “the mix” as containing six “elements.” These are:

  • Balance

  • Panorama

  • Frequency

  • Dimension

  • Dynamics

  • Interest

Some of these are more obvious “elements” than others, but these are a good starting point when trying to talk about what “the mix” is, and how to be better at mixing.

Some Definitions

Balance

In Owsinski’s terms, balance is essentially the “mixing” part of mixing (with a little bit of musical arrangement thrown in). Balance is a description of how each musical voice stacks up compared to the others around it. In one sense, balance is a description of how loud the violin is compared to the cello. But, Owsinski uses the word balance to describe the musical arrangement, meaning, the way the violin and cello interact with another. (Which one is playing “lead?” Which is “supporting?”)

Panorama

Panorama is the way sounds are presented to us in the “stereo field.” We have two ears and they are sensitive enough (and independent enough) to notice extremely subtle differences based on physical location. When someone speaks into my left ear my brain recognizes the as coming mostly from my left. Our ears are also pretty good—though not quite as good—at hearing things as in front of or behind us. 

Stereo recordings—meaning recordings with a discreet “left” and “right” side, each meant for a different speaker—have been around since the early–1960s, becoming essentially standard around 1970. In the mid–1970s there were some brief experiments with mixing music into more than two sides, but it never really caught on. (Of course, this has become almost standard for film and television audio.) So, for our purposes, “panorama” is the way different sounds are presented to us on a L/R axis.

Frequency

The word frequency is a bit more scientific than some of the others on Bobby Owsinski’s list. In everyday terms, frequency is the “highness” or “lowness” of any given sound. It’s actually a little more complicated than this since sounds are usually combinations of thousands of low-ish and high-ish sounds. In fact, it is this characteristic of sound, the “it’s-more-complicated-than-simply-high-or-low” aspect of musical sounds that makes frequency one of the more difficult elements to try to work with. A bass drum, an electric bass, and the bottom half of the guitar all occupy, more or less, the same spectrum of frequencies; trying to figure out how to make each one sound distinct is the challenge of dealing with this element (and can feel like an endless loop of “tweaking”).

But, in a more general sense, “frequency” is also a description of the overall high vs. low of a recording as a whole. A recording with too much bass (low frequencies) can sound “heavy,” while too much going on up top sounds “light.” What is “correct” is often an aesthetic choice .

Dimension

This one is actually not even real. When Bobby Owsinski uses the word dimension, he is talking about the perceived “closeness” of a sound. Since there are actually only two speakers in a stereo recording, and these are usually the same distance from our ears, all of the sounds are coming from the same distance … the distance the speakers are from our ears. But, we can sometimes, through the use of echoes, delays, reverbs, and other fancy things, create the illusion that something is farther away or closer to the listener.

Dynamics

Dynamics is the word musicians use to describe the “volume” of a sound (or, rather, the relative volume of sounds). In engineer and science-y terms, this would be “amplitude,” or, more accurately, “amplitude variation.” Essentially, talking about dynamics is talking about how loud stuff is. This applies both in terms of if something is just too bloody loud or if it is too loud compared to something else that is quiet (or at least, something less-loud). 

Interest

This is also something that is a little bit imaginary. Bobby Owsinski uses the word interest to describe what is essentially some combination of magic, musical quality, aesthetic ideals, and other philosophical navel gazings. Having a mix with “good interest” basically means a mix that “is interesting” … which is more-or-less a case-by-case, meaningless definition.

Stay Tuned

We will go into a lot more detail with all of these elements in the next few weeks. As you can probably guess, some of these will be easier to quantify and demonstrate than others. We’ll do what we can. For now, it would be cool if you spent some time listening to some of your favorite recordings and tried to decipher how these elements are at work in those recordings.

Oh, and listen to some Radiohead. That’s always a good idea.

on My Trip to Europe, part 2

Added on by Taylor Smith.

Highlights

The first thing most people have asked us since we got back is some variation of, “What was your favorite place?” Of course, this is a difficult question to answer, given the variety of places we went.

When my wife answers this question, she is pretty quick to say Salzburg was her favorite place. She wishes we had scheduled more time, there. I am less sure (though I would have loved to spend more time in Salzburg). I really enjoyed Brussels for certain reasons, but also really liked Strasbourg and Normandy for entirely different reasons.

All things considered, I think Belgium was my favorite country. This kind of surprised me as I had never really considered Belgium as a “must-see” part of Europe.

Grand Place, Brussels

BELGIUM

Library, University of Leuven

BELGIUM

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My beautiful wife in Antwerp

BELGIUM

Strasbourg (France) is pretty magical. I was surprised at how cool it was, given that I didn’t know very much about it before we got therre. Much of the time we were there I had to remind myself that this was an actual place, not a fake “neighborhood” at Disneyland; it really does feel like one of those manufactured experiences at a theme park … but it’s real, of course.

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La Petite France, Strasbourg

FRANCE

We didn’t get to spend enough time in France and we didn’t get to visit as many places as I would have liked. Immediately after riding the EuroStar across the channel, we rented a car and drove to first to Juno Beach and then to the village of Beauvoir (near the Mont-Saint-Michel abbey). This area was beautiful. It was quiet and quaint. I would love to find a way to spend a month just kind of drifting in and out of the “bustle” of the touristy stuff like le mont and the (seemingly) laidback lifestyle of the typical Norman fisherman.

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Mont-Saint-Michel

FRANCE

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Beauvoir

FRANCE

Lowlights

People don’t ask this question as often, but if someone were to ask me about the place I liked the least, I would be able to answer a lot more quickly. Amsterdam. I know a lot of people love Amsterdam, but it was just too much for me. It was chaotic and overwhelming. The actual Netherlanders themselves seemed like perfectly wonderful people, but the touristy-ness of Amsterdam really dissuaded me from loving it. That’s not totally Amsterdam’s fault, I suppose.

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Canals, Amsterdam

NETHERLANDS

I was also less-than wowed by Munich. We didn’t venture very far outside the city—just a bus ride to Dachau—so we may have missed what makes Munich great. We were in Strasbourg just before Munich, so that city’s charm might have set Munich up to fail in my eyes.

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Marienplatz, Munich

GERMANY

The thing that disappointed me most was Paris, I think. A big part of my disappointment was simply Paris’s reputation; I have dreamed of visiting Paris since I was a young teen, and I had bought into all of the romantic notions we are all told about the “City of Love.” In a nutshell, Paris was dingier and more rundown than I had imagined. The metro trains are kind of rickety, the metro stations are dirty and smelly, there is graffiti in prominent places … in short, Paris is a a big, bustling, modern city struggling with all of the pains places like Los Angeles and New York have to battle everyday. I didn’t notice as many of these “problems” (features?) in some of the other cities, but I may have just been primed to notice them in Paris simply because I had built the city up to be paradise in my head. Some people hate it, but I really like L.A. But, I know the places to avoid and go in knowing there will be annoying “actors” trying to con you into taking a picture with them on the Walk of Fame; I expect there to be grimey alleyways all throughout Silverlake and Echo Park. Paris was dealing with these exact situations … I just didn’t expect it for some reason.

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ur, Montmartre, Paris

FRANCE

More

I have more to say about all of this, some of which I want to visit in a future post(s).

on My Trip to Europe, part 1

Added on by Taylor Smith.

My wife and I spent a month in Europe this past summer. A few things kind of “fell into place” that made the trip possible, and we had several “excuses” as to why we should go on a big trip (a 40th birthday, a 15th wedding anniversary, and a graduate degree all occurred within a six month period).

I have previously written a little bit about the trip, but have been wanting to do some sort of big “recap” ever since we got back. The problem is, when I put the idea of doing some sort of all encompassing, extra-reflective project, I clam up out of some fear of failure or something … which means I never actually write anything.

I am trying to specifically not think of this (or any other writing/thinking about the trip) as the blog post about the trip, as my official “take” on the whole thing. I do want to somehow kind of make sense of the trip, but any time I sit down to do that, I get intimidated by the idea. So, instead, I am just going to (try to) chip away at my grand “exit interview” as I find the idea interesting and just kind of see where things go.

Right now, the idea of making a series of small posts about the trip and some of my thoughts about it (and the stuff it made me think about) is what sounds manageable, so that’s where I am taking this.

Overview

Black = our primary path (almost 100% on trains)Red = overnight trips in both directions (also on trains)Green = flights

Black = our primary path (almost 100% on trains)

Red = overnight trips in both directions (also on trains)

Green = flights

We were gone for almost exactly a month (all of June, 2019). An entire month seems like a long time until you start trying to allocate how many days you will spend in any one city. The longest we stayed in any one city was only four or five nights, I think. We tried to cram a lot of stuff into those 30-ish days. The major cities we visited were (in this order)1 :

  • Brussels (and Leuven)

  • Amsterdam

  • Strasbourg

  • Munich

  • Salzburg

  • Vienna

  • Prague

  • Dresden (and Leipzig)

  • London

  • Normandy (not really a city, of course)

  • Paris

  • Antwerp (and Bruges)

From here, I think it makes sense to talk a bit about some of the “highlights,” “favorites,” and other such remembrances. Also, the trip rearranged the way I think about certain things, which I want to explore further. It also has me making future plans that revolve around finding a way to go back for a very extended stay—to take a semester, even a year—to really let certain aspects of what I loved about those places “become” part of me.

Stay tuned, I guess.

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  1. The order seems a little weird, I know. We flew into and out of Brussels but also flew from Prague to London about ⅔ of the way through the trip. ↩︎

on Experiments with Honesty and Empathy

Added on by Taylor Smith.

A few weeks ago, I decided to start being more honest with the world. There are still a lot of secrets that I am keeping—secrets that may never see the light of day—though this is not what I mean when I say “honest.” What I am trying to say is that I am experimenting with being a bit more open, showing a bit more vulnerability. This is an effort to be more “connected” with the people around me. Things have been really difficult for my family, me especially, over the last year, and I am thinking it’s time to be honest about that. In the past few weeks, I have made a series of Facebook posts that have been pretty raw, definitely more so than usual.

So far, it has gone pretty well, actually. People have been very gracious and appreciative of the things I have said and shared. I have had a few people reach out to me, privately, to say both “thank you” and “I think what you are doing is great.” Like I said above, there are still a lot of things that I am not going to share, things that will be too painful or heart-wrenching to let everyone see. But, I am feeling some relief by sharing these things, and I am learning that most of us aren’t as alone as we might fear. It has only been a few weeks, of course, but I have already noticed a difference in the way I think about my anxieties and treat the situations wherein I find myself.

I am sometimes quite shy. It takes a long time for me to feel inclined to let anyone “in,” to even participate in small talk. I can’t put my finger on exactly why I am this way. I like to think that I am more thoughtful than I am vocal (which I think is at least partly true), but I have a suspicion that I might also be a little untrusting, maybe even judgmental of others. Often, I am fine to just sit and observe or listen when I am stuck in a social situation. Parties and the like can be kind of tricky for me; I don’t mind being there, but I am reluctant to actually be social, especially with the group. This can sometimes come across as cocky or uninterested, which doesn’t help my case.

Something I am learning about myself—well, I guess I always knew it, but I am learning to recognize it better—is that I am very empathetic. I mean this in the sense that I have the talent/ability/skill/curse of being able to really feel what other people feel. If I see someone I know start to cry, I have a hard time keeping it together myself. This, even when I might be clueless as to why they are crying. In many ways, this is a good thing; among other things, it means that I feel like I can really understand people, that I can really connect with them. But, it also means that I end up carrying some of their burdens without realizing it.

I suppose my empathetic-ness could be partly to blame for my reticence toward letting people “in.” I wonder if this is a form of self preservation; talking to too many people, being too social might end up with me feeling too many things, carrying too many burdens.

If you ever see me at a party:

  1. You must have a life as boring as mine, because I go to something like one party a year, and

  2. Please know that it’s probably not me being cocky if I seem standoffish; it is more likely just me trying to figure out how to be social in the current context

on Fatherhood, Mental Illness, and not really liking any of it

Added on by Taylor Smith.

I love my kids. That’s the first thing that needs to be established. But, there are a lot of times that I don’t really like them.

Right now, I am taking a combination of anti-depressants and mood stabilizers. I have been on this regimen for quite a while ... a few years at least. I have been prescribed various other treatments over the past eighteen years. Things are relatively stable, now, but I am still “under treatment” and probably will be forever. Sometimes, though, I get busy or am away from home and I fall behind on my medication. Surprisingly, I can feel a difference after missing only a few doses. The thing that I notice first is how much I start to dislike my kids (and others) when my meds wear off. Essentially, I can feel myself slipping into a really short sense of patience with them and I get annoyed and/or angry with them pretty fast.

I have come to terms with the fact that I am someone who lives with a form of mental illness. I don’t really like this fact, but lots of people live with lots of health issues and we don’t make that big of a deal about most of them so mine shouldn’t be much different. But, what I don’t like is that I have to take medicine to feel like liking my kids. Without the meds, I really don’t like my kids. This makes me feel as if the way I really am is as a father that hates his kids, and it’s only through medication that he is able to not be instantly annoyed by them. (With the medication, things are still rough. I still struggle to find a sense of equilibrium with them, but it is significantly easier when I am fully medicated.)

Things have been extra rough chez nous recently. There has been a lot of yelling, a lot of locking of doors and taking away of privileges. There hasn’t been nearly as much “Home Can Be A Heaven On Earth” as I think we are supposed to have. It has been exhausting and kind of heartbreaking for my wife and I to feel the rollercoaster of moods, volumes, and changes in our home environment everyday over the past months.

This isn’t a cry for sympathy or anything like that. I have recently been making an effort to be a bit more “real” with the world. I am pretty bad at socializing, but I do feel like I am relatively good at writing, so this is a semi-comfortable way for me to try to connect with others and be a little more vulnerable (which is supposedly a healthy way to deal with stuff).

on Speaking French

Added on by Taylor Smith.

Until earlier this week I had never visited a French-speaking country. This, despite the fact that I minored in French in college and had a job speaking French for about six months.

My wife and I are in Europe for a month. We left Los Angeles on June 3 and we will be back on July 2. Both of us have been to parts of Europe before—Poland, Czechia, Slovakia, Austria, and Hungary for me; Germany, Czechia, Austria, and Hungary for her—but neither of us have been to France, Belgium, Holland, Luxembourg, or England (all places on our itinerary this month).1 We have talked about doing a trip like this ever since we got married (2003). But, stuff like this is expensive, and things like school, careers, kids, and life get in the way of ideas like that. But, this year brought a lot of big things: our fifteenth (!) wedding anniversary was last December, my wife turned forty in January, and she graduated with her Master of Music degree this past May. So, there is quite a lot of stuff to celebrate, and we decided now was the time to finally make this trip happen.2

Between us, my wife is definitely the one with vacation-planning skills. Once we decided “it is time,” she got to work looking for flights, booking hotels, etc. I think we booked our flights back in August, 2018, with some hotels, etc. following not terribly long afterward. She deserves most of the credit for all of that, though she did ask me to book a handful of the logistics as a birthday gift to her back in January. By February we were done and done (almost) with all of the logistical planning.3

But, a few days ago we flew from LA to Paris and then took a train to Brussels.4 Navigating Charles de Gaulle airport was pretty tricky, especially trying to figure out how to get to our train. Eventually, we decided it was time to ask someone for help. Of course, almost everyone that works for the airlines speaks English, but I really wanted to “have a go” with trying to not look like a dumb American that expects everyone to speak English. So, I approached the guy at the Air France help desk and just launched into my question: “Je dois trouver un train à Bruxelles. Il a été réservé avec Air France.” And, he just gave me what I needed to know (en français, bien sûr). Better yet, I understood 80-ish% (the important 80%) of the stuff he said!

In December, I decided it would be a good idea for me to take something of a “refresher course” in French. So, I signed up for Conversational French 1 at my local community college (not the one where I teach, as this class wasn’t in our schedule for the Spring 2019 semester). This class was (almost) entirely in French. Before the first day of classes, it had been a good 13+ years since I had spoken French or had anyone really check in on my fluency.5 The first few days were rough; I didn’t really follow much of what the professor was saying, nor did I feel confident saying much of anything. Things got better, of course, and, by the end, I was feeling significantly more confident talking with the other students and the professor. Still, when you talk with other students or a professor, you can always fall back on English when you get stuck (“Comment dit-on [insert English word]?”), so I was still pretty nervous as arriving in Paris got closer and closer. This question was my first entrée into the world or speaking French without training wheels since 2004/5. It felt nice to have some success.

I get it that my question was relatively simple. That’s a first-year-of-high-school-French level of question. Still, it felt really nice to have that validation from an actual Parisian. Also, he might have secretly been laughing at me, but he did a good job of hiding it.

 

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  1. We are also visiting Germany, Austria, and Czechia this time. ↩︎

  2. We also have friends that are currently living in both Leuven (Belgium) and Prague, which makes the whole idea even easier to actualize. ↩︎

  3. Some of the train specifics turned out to be more involved than we thought. We are still trying to work some of that out as we speak. ↩︎

  4. We actually thought we were booking a flight to Brussels, as the whole thing was booked via Air France and the second portion just looked like another flight at first glance. ↩︎

  5. Except for that little green owl in Duolingo. ↩︎

SD Voyager feature

Added on by Taylor Smith.

The SD Voyager, an online magazine, just published a story about me.  

 

The TL;DR version: I took a kind of crooked path to get where I am today. Apparently, that makes me “inspiring” or something.

 

The longer verion.

Reka Parker Interview

Added on by Taylor Smith.

Cuyamaca Sessions is a podcast produced by students in the Music Industry Studies Program at Cuyamaca College. Behold, our first episode!

on Not Really Listening

Added on by Taylor Smith.

I was listening to Ben Harper’s album Diamonds on the Inside, today. As is kind of typical for Ben Harper, the album wanders a bit; there are great moments, and then there are kind points where it kind of rambles on, wearing out its welcome at times. This album isn’t new; it was released in 2003.I have heard it several times before. But, it had been a year or more since I had listened. As a whole, the album is probably in the 6/10 range; if I could reduce it down to a five-song EP, it would definitely earn a higher score.

Sometimes, I listen too much like a record producer. Instead of just listening to a song and letting it be what it is, I often think of things that could make it better. I suppose that three degrees in music and a doctoral dissertation about mid-60s recording studio usage could do that to a person. When I should be enjoying the music, my head ends up in places like:

“Ooh. If there was a little more reverb on the guitar, there, it would sound better.”

“Man, I wish they would have waited one more phrase before bringing in the backing vocals.”

When I was listening to the title track, I caught myself thinking, “That spot, right there, would be perfect for a little bit of pedal steel.” Then, I remembered that I was talking about Ben Harper, one of the most accomplished slide guitar players around, and I was giving him advice on when/where to add some slide guitar in one or his songs. Who am I to be doling out this kind of “advice?”

Then, in the next verse ... some beautiful pedal steel countermelodies right where I thought they should be.

This isn’t me trying to do one of those “great minds think alike” comparisons or anything. I just found this to be kind of funny.

One more idea: I want the guitar in R.E.M.’s “Let Me In” (from Monster) to have even less definition. I want there to be no rhythmic distinction ... just a big wall of super-saturated fuzz. Then, when the tambourine and synth come in, it would kind of be like, “Oh, nowI can sense the beat.” Just an idea for you guys, Mike, Peter, Michael, and Bill (and Scott).

 

 

 

* I think I heard about it on KCRW’s Morning Becomes Ecclecticback when I was living in Pomona about a year after this. Actually, listening to FM radio, like a schmuck!

 

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on Understanding Stuff

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I think I think I am smarter than I am. In all actuality, I am pretty ignorant concerning almost everything. In fact, one of the few things I can truly say that I “know” is that I only understand a few things.

My general ignorance and lack of understanding applies even to things that I am supposed to understand. For instance, I earned a PhD in Musicology two years ago. So, one could easily assume that I, therefore, know everything there is to know about music, or, at the least, know most of what there is to know about music. I would argue, though, that I know next to nothing about music. Music is a huge topic, and the deeper I dig, the more interesting mysteries I find.

This is the case with everything. Everything is more complicated than we think it is. There is more to everything than even many experts are willing to admit. It sounds cliché, but it really is the case that the more you learn about something the more you realize how much you don’t know.

Behold, my crappy attempt at explaining who we know what we don’t know. 

Behold, my crappy attempt at explaining who we know what we don’t know. 

Most of the time, I think the “correct” answer is simply, “I can’t say for sure,” or, maybe, “It’s complicated.”

I took a general education humanities class back in 2002 or so. As a music major and amateur historian and voracious reader (back then ... I can hardly make it ten pages without dozing off anymore), I was pretty convinced that I did not need to take this class. My—admittedly idiotic—thinking was some combination of, what-could-I-possibly-learn-from-the-class and why-do-they-make-us-take-general-education-classes-anyway naïveté. I hear this gripe a lot, which frustrates me as I now totally get it; I try to remember the fact that I felt this same way when I was in my late-teens and early-twenties.

One of the best things I learned in that humanities class was the professor’s admonition that it is at the moment that you are absolutely sure of something that you are likely wrong. Re-examination is “knowledge’s” best friend. Are you certain that your ideas about how the world works are right? Time to step back and look at it again. Do you know that this or that political/social view is always superior? You’re probably wrong. I have been accused of being “incurious” or “stubborn” in the past, and those assessments were probably right. But, when I see a dead end on the horizon, my gut tells me that it is time to turn and pursue different paths, at least until I can see a reason to reassess that position; this too is probably wrong.

Sometimes I mistakenly fall back on my I-am-a-doctor-and-you’re-not or I-went-to-a-more-prestigious-school-than-you laurels, and, of all people, I should know how stupid that is. I am sorry about that. I am trying to be better.

on a Conference

Added on by Taylor Smith.

I was invited to speak at the Music Association of California Community Colleges (say that ten times fast) 2017 conference in November. This year’s conference is in San Francisco.

As a “musicologist”—that is what my college degrees say I am, at least—I am supposed to try to publish articles and make contributions to the field. People with PhDs are supposed to submit papers to journals and thereby bring their academic discipline a little closer to understanding the world. As I have mentioned before, I just don’t find most of that very interesting.

I do, however, enjoy speaking at conferences. In the realm of academic meaningfulness, speaking carries less weight than publishing. But, it’s better than nothing. I have spoken at at least one music-related conference every year over the past several; should I ever get an itch to move into “higher” academia (outside the community colleges), those talks will give me something to point to as evidence of my academic chops.

When the MACCC folks sent out their Call for Presentations, they specifically mentioned that they were interested in hearing about things relating to popular/contemporary music. They also said something like, “Tell us interesting and innovative things you are doing at your college!” Methought, “I am doing something innovative and interesting with popular music at my college!” (at least think I am).

For those unfamiliar: I direct a pop-music ensemble, called the Rock, Pop, and Soul Ensemble. We offer an AA/transfer program in Music Industry Studies. As this is a music degree, those in this program are required to perform just like any other music major. But, since this is a degree focused on the music industry (meaning it’s primarily about pop music), it seems necessary that the college have a pop-music ensemble. Hence the RPSE.

I took over directing the group in 2012. Before me, the group usually did concerts that were kind of like “greatest hits” shows revolving around a topic (e.g. pop vs. punk, or metal vs. Motown). I can see the value in this, but I wanted to take the group in a different direction.

Thinking about what to do with the group, I decided to treat the class a bit more like the way one might treat a symphony orchestra or choir: a performing group that focuses on the “great works” written for that ensemble. Orchestras play Mozart, Beethoven, and Brahms; choirs sing Palestrina, Bach, and Schubert; therefore, a pop-music ensemble would perform The Beatles, Pink Floyd, and Michael Jackson. And, since orchestras usually play entire symphonies (the “complete” work), pop-music ensembles should perform entire albums. Not just any albums, of course: only those generally considered the “great” ones.

Given the fact that I was knee deep in my dissertation when I took over, the first album we tried was The Beach Boys’/Brian Wilson’s SMiLE. In hindsight, that was a dumb idea; it was way too hard and I didn’t yet have the directing chops to help us figure it out. At the end of the semester, I had the students help me pick the next semester’s repertoire; we settled on Rubber Soul.

Rubber Soul, for a variety of reasons, was an easier project. After that, we did Rumours, and I added a few extra songs from the same year in order to get the students to see a little bit of the diversity in music at that time. Since that time, we have played Speaking in Tongues (Talking Heads), Odelay (Beck), A’ Go-Go (The Supremes), Dark Side of the Moon(Pink Floyd), Thriller (Michael Jackson), August and Everything After (Counting Crows), Abbey Road (The Beatles), Ziggy Stardust (David Bowie), Synchronicity (The Police), and (this semester) The Miseducation of Lauryn Hill (Lauryn Hill).

Though I may be out-of-the-know, I think this is an innovative—perhaps even unique—approach to the emerging field of college-level popular music ensembles.

If you happen to be in San Francisco on November 18, and listening to me rattle on about what we are up tochez Cuyamaca, I will hook you up with a front row seat. If coming to our concert is more your thing, come see us perform on November 27!

on Difficult Topics and Kids

Added on by Taylor Smith.

Firstly, the rallies, protests, and violence that took place in Charlottesville, VA were horrible. I have virtually no patience with anyone that wants to defend the “Unite the Right” organizers, attendees, or their goals. You can call me whatever sort of “-ist” you want to, but I will not tolerate Neo-Nazis, the KKK, or any other my-race-is-superior-to-yours or we-should-push-you-out-of-“our-country”-because-of-your-race-or-culture vitriol (and, no, Black Lives Matter does not believe this), and there is no equivocating Neo-Nazi marchers with anything other than pure ugliness and idiocy. And, if you are going to march alongside said KKK idiots, or agree to speak at an event they are celebrating, you support them as far as I am concerned. Similarly, failing to denounce this belief and activity, or to blame “many sides” for this stuff, makes you their defender; what could be easier than denouncing Nazis or the KKK? Someone was killed at a rally supported by Neo-Nazis, the KKK, and other awful ideologues. How is anything about the “other side” relevant at that moment?

 

I have two kids: an eleven-year-old girl and an eight-year-old boy. My wife and I decided that we simply had to talk with them about what happened a few weeks ago. Unfortunately, the world is a pretty horrible, baffling place sometimes, and it seems dishonest to pretend otherwise.

But, how do you explain the KKK to an eight year old? What sorts of analogies are appropriate to talk about white supremacists and Neo-Nazis?

My daughter is a very sensitive person—to a fault, sometimes—and it became obvious to us when she finally “got it.” She felt so much sympathy for the people effected by the protests, the fatalities most of all. She has two very good friends (a set of twins, actually) that are African-American. They live across the street. The idea that some people might think these girls were somehow less-than, maybe even sub-human, was heartbreaking for her.

We also tried to explain the concept of “white privilege.” Basically, we told the kids that they have been given—as have my wife and I, and our parents, and our grandparents, ad infinitum—a lot of breaks in our lives. People have been willing to give us the benefit of the doubt and we have a lot of opportunities that simply exist, just “because.” Others, including the girls across the street, often aren’t given those things. In fact, it was not that long ago that their family members were slaves owned by people who simply inherited less melanin and an imperial worldview.

Our daughter cried; our son didn’t, but it was clear that he was affected by our conversation. My wife and I are trying to raise conscientious and thoughtful kids. I would love it if this didn’t necessarily result in hurting them at the same time. I am well aware of this statement’s naïveté, but that doesn’t make me wish for it any less.

on Maps

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I have always loved looking at maps. I have combed through more editions of the Rand McNally Road Atlas than I can remember. I couldn’t tell you how many hours of my life I have lost while I have stared, studiously, at the two-page spread corresponding to the greater Los Angeles area; a fair estimate is that it is a lot of hours, give or take.

I have learned some interesting things from staring at maps. For example (speaking of L.A.): the Los Angeles city limits include this tiny little sliver, no more than a few blocks wide in places, which allows for the Port of Los Angeles to sit within the city itself; West Hollywood is a separate city (almost) completely surrounded by L.A., but North Hollywood and “regular” Hollywood are simply neighborhoods within the Los Angeles city limits; there is a small area of unincorporated L.A. County sitting in the middle of the Sepulveda Pass, though you would never know it if you were to visit; San Diego annexed the last few miles just north of the US/Mexican border, despite the fact that it is separated from the rest of the city by parts of Imperial Beach, Chula Vista, and National City.1

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I have no idea if there is a name for being enamored with maps (Cartophelia? Atlophelia?), but it’s a title I might have to add to my CV.

When I look at the state, county, and city borders in the western third of the United States, I see a lot of big states with many arbitrary straight lines serving as borders. Back East, everything is all curvy and tightly-packed. I suppose that the State-Line-Drawer Dudes simply got lazy as the country expanded westward and folks didn’t bother to divide all of that empty space in places like Wyoming or Nevada into smaller chunks. If it was an eastern state, settled as a British Colony, California would probably be five or six separate states, some with a coastline, some without.

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I haven’t spent more than four or five days on the East Coast, and those were spent in and around New York City. Being a Western-States kid, I can’t quite wrap my head around what it would be like to live in New England. I mean this from a purely geographic standpoint; have you seen how small Rhode Island is? Here, I could, literally, drive all day and never cross a state line. There, it would probably take like 5 minutes, give or take.

I had a few friends in college that were from the East Coast/New England, one from Jacksonville, one from Altlanta, one from Rochester, and one from outside of D.C. Just as I couldn’t quite wrap my head around how many states there are on along the Eastern Seaboard, it was weird to them that L.A. and San Francisco are a whole day’s drive apart, let alone that California keeps going for another day’s drive north of San Francisco.

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Several years ago, I wrote a long-gone blog post about Staten Island. I wish I still had it—a change of web hosts and content management systems alongside my tendency to hit the “delete” key as often as possible led to some lost writing—as I remember it being kind of funny. Basically, it was this: Take a look at a map of New York City. Why is Staten Island part of New York State, let alone part of the city? You literally have to cut a chunk out of what is clearly New Jersey in order to force Staten Island into New York. (Never mind the fact that N.Y.C. doesn’t really seem to fit within New York State very easily.)

Anyway, if you happen to catch me staring at an atlas, know that I am in one of my “happy places.”

 

 

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  1. This is nothing compared to Russia’s Kaliningrad Oblast, which is separated from the rest of the country by 750 miles! ↩︎

 

on a Jam Session

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I played in a semi-formal jam session last week. The music was part of a benefit event to honor my high school band director, Jeff Tower, who passed away earlier this month. The idea was that there are a lot of people who were in band and/or worked with him that are still active musicians, that a good way to “honor” Tower would be to pull many of them together and have a “jam session.”

I went into this event both excited and nervous; excited that I might get to see some friends that I haven’t seen in seventeen years or more, but nervous because my jazz playing simply isn’t what it used to be (actually, none of my playing is what it used to be). Instead of getting better since college, I have gotten worse. I know that a certain amount of this is normal. Life happens to people. But, I was still nervous going in because a “jam session” is a pretty open-ended thing, and just about anything can happen.

I was lucky enough to go to high school with two phenomenal saxophonists. One, a woman I knew as Jessica, who now goes by a stage name, is a few years older than I; the other, who says he “doesn’t play all that much anymore” but still sounds better than just about anyone I know, is a few years younger than I. I didn’t really know her all that well—high school seniors aren’t generally in the habit of befriending freshmen unless there is a specific reason to—but I knew him quite well. He and I were roommates during a summer at Idyllwild Arts, and he asked me to be his accompanist for a super-prestigious competition. Both he and she showed up at the jam session.

A woman at the event wanted to sing “All of Me.” That was straightforward. Then, when no one else on stage piped up, a certain female saxophonist said, “Let’s play ‘A Night in Tunisia.’” That’s not a difficult tune, per se, but it has some less-than-straightforward things that could benefit from at least some discussion up front. It went alright, though not without hiccup. Then, she calls “Cherokee.” “Cherokee.” “Cherokee” is the piece you play when you’re certain that the audience wants to know what a ride cymbal smells like when it starts to melt. The chord changes are not hard, but they aren’t easy either, but, then again, few things are “easy” at 250 bpm. (Also, there is that whole, tuning-my-bass-in-fifths thing ... )

My first “jam session” in over a decade, and I get to fumble my way through “Cherokee.” Sheesh!

Here is Wynton Marsalis making all of us look bad.

on Playing the Bass and High School Teachers

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I started playing the bass when I was sixteen. Before that, I played a bunch of other stuff: my parents bought me a small Casio keyboard when I was about eight; I started playing trumpet in fourth grade; I switched to the baritone when I got braces in eighth grade; when I got to high school, I wanted to play in the jazz band, so I switched to the trombone (luckily, my high school happened to have a valve trombone [picture a trombone with valves—like a trumpet—instead of a slide], which made switching to trombone a cinch); someone else in the trombone section broke his arm, so I had to switch to the “regular” trombone; a few months into my junior year, the girl that played bass in the jazz band quit with virtually no warning and our band director asked me to play bass. I had been taking piano lessons for a few years at that point, and had a decent grasp of music theory, and was comfortable reading bass clef ... all of which gave my band director the impression that I could play the bass.

That was on Friday. I took the school’s bass guitar home, spent the weekend trying to figure out how to play it, and returned on Monday as “the bass player.” I knew almost nothing about the bass; I knew how it was tuned and that each fret was a half-step, but everything beyond that was pretty much a mystery. I stood at the back of the band with the bass slung over my shoulder and a terrified look on my face.

From that point forward, I was a bass player, apparently.

As the semester moved along, my teacher told me he would like me to play upright bass on the pieces that called for it. “But, I don’t know how to play upright bass,” I said. He responded, “You can figure it out. It’s basically the same as the bass guitar, just bigger and without frets.” “That’s a pretty big difference!” I said. “You’ll figure out out.”

So, I started the 11th grade playing third trombone in the jazz band, and ended playing bass (both electric and acoustic). I still played euphonium in the concert band, as we were required to play in the concert band if we wanted to be in the jazz band, but I didn’t really view that as “my” instrument anymore; I spent far too much time trying to figure out how to play the bass to put much effort into practicing any other instruments.

Fast-forward to the end of my senior year, June 2000. By this point, I had attended the Idyllwild Arts Academy Summer Jazz Workshop on a full scholarship, was placed in the Riverside City College Honor Jazz Band, accompanied the eventual winner of the Los Angeles Music Center’s Young Jazz Artists competition during his preliminary auditions, and was accepted into Ricks College on a full-tuition scholarship as a jazz bassist. In a matter of about twenty months I had gone from having never played the bass, to winning awards and scholarships!

I don’t say these things to brag or congratulate myself. I say them to praise the man who set this in motion, my high school band director, Mr. Jeff Tower. Were it not for him, I would not have started playing the bass at all, and I might not have pursued music past high school. I always liked playing in the band (and singing in the choir), but it wasn’t until I started playing bass that I really loved music. Actually, that’s not entirely fair, I always “loved” music the way many people do, but once I started playing bass, music became something bigger, deeper, and far more interesting than it was before. It is impossible to know how things might have been under different circumstances, but I feel fairly confident in saying that Mr. Tower’s crazy idea of asking me to play the bass was one of those “pivotal” points that changed a lot of things for me. I owe a lot of where I am to his crazy idea.

I was a freshman at Hemet High School in 1996; Mr. Tower started teaching there in 1977. In the twenty years previous to me, Jeff Tower built a music program that attained a fair amount of fame and prestige. Hemet High School performed, more than once, at both the Playboy and Montreaux Jazz Festivals. The marching band made its way to Pasadena for the Rose Parade on a few occasions as well. By the time I got there, Hemet High School’s bands—and their director—were well known across the country (even internationally). I was lucky to inherit such prestige. To be perfectly honest, I am not so sure that the bands I was in were quite as good as some had been in the past, though we still played well— better than most of the other high school bands we encountered at various festivals. Still, the fact that Mr. Tower had laid this prestigious foundation before I arrived gave me opportunities and experiences that I would not have had elsewhere.

I had a classmate in graduate school who was a band director, professionally. He grew up in Fresno about a decade before my time. When it came out that I grew up in Hemet, and that I went to Hemet High School, he immediately perked up and told me about how envious he was of Hemet as a band student. It seemed like Hemet High School and Jeff Tower won every competition and were the “team to beat” at every stage. He said he was still using some ideas he had gleaned from Mr. Tower in his own work as a college band director. While I knew Mr. Tower was kind of famous, it didn’t really register, fully, until I ran into a few people like this as an adult.

Unfortunately, Mr. Tower passed away on July 4, 2017. He was only 63. He lost a few-year-long battle with brain cancer. The last time I remember seeing him was sometime in 2006 or 2007, when I stopped by to say hello during the school day. By that point, I was married with a kid and knee deep in graduate school stuff, but he remembered exactly who I was and even knew some details about what was happening in my life.

When I sent out announcements for my PhD commencement ceremony in 2015, I made sure that Mr. Tower got one. I didn’t expect him to come to the ceremony or the party afterward, but did want him to know where I had arrived. After all, I owed at least some of my accomplishments to his vision. The last I heard from him was a simple Facebook comment. My wife posted a picture of me (the one I am currently using as my profile picture, in fact), and said that she really liked it because I rarely look natural in photos. Mr. Tower left a two word comment on this post: “Great man.” 

Mr. Tower will be missed. I count myself as lucky to have been in his band and under his educational and musical influence.

on Fireworks

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Fireworks scare the crap out of me. I’m not talking about the ones you go see at the city park on Independence Day, or the ones Disneyland lights off every night all summer long. I am talking about the ones people bring home and light off in the driveway. Am I the only one who sees these things as a brush fire and/or a few missing fingers just waiting to happen?

Growing up in Riverside County, as I did, fireworks were always illegal. The only type of fireworks you could get your hands on—including sparklers—were illegal ones. Apparently, California leaves the legality of fireworks, at least partly, up to the counties, and some counties leave that up to the individual cities. So, for me, and the other 2,189,740 people in Riverside County, fireworks and contraband were synonymous. Fireworks of all kinds are illegal here in San Diego County as well. That should  mean that I never have to deal with them, but …

One summer, when I was around 10 or 11, we went to visit my cousins in Utah ... again … It was right around the Fourth of July, and we had a bunch of time to kill. My cousins lived a few blocks from K-Mart, so we walked down there since we had nothing else to do. When we got there, my cousins started looking at all of these fireworks, picking out which ones they were going to buy. My gut sank. “Do their parents know that they are buying fireworks? Do the police know that K-Mart is selling fireworks?! How am I going to explain this to my mom when I have to call her from the county jail?!”

There was this kid I knew in high school. He was notoriously mischievous. Somehow, he got ahold of a dresser drawer full of fireworks from Mexico. We went on a camping trip in Joshua Tree, and he brought some of these miniature, twirling arsonists with him. When he brandished those things, all I could picture was the entire national park going up in flames; no one would ever be able to visit Joshua Tree again, as it would simply be a bare, scorched, moonscape.

Last year, someone gave my kids some sparklers to play with on the Fourth of July. I spent the entire time those things were burning trying to keep myself from flipping out. My 7-year-old was holding a barely-under-control ball of fire six inches from his face. That is insanity!

I know that I am some sort of “prude,” and that I only feel this way because I haven’t been around fireworks enough or something. But, I am still a nervous wreck when I see those tiny sparks flying all over the place. Instead of enjoying the excitement and celebration, I keep picturing the neighbor’s dead lawn bursting into flames, which then leads to chain a reaction of the entire city burning down.

Legend has it that a cow started the Great Chicago Fire of 1871. If a cow can do it, why not spinning bits of fire in the driveway?

Happy Fourth of July, y’all.